Sunday, April 29, 2012

Tell a Secret!

Here is my secret:

When I was a little girl...I used to believe in fairies. I seriously thought they were alive. Like little bugs or something that would fly around. Silly, I know. But when I was a kid, I had the biggest imagination! A lot of it came from the Disney movie, Fantasia. I would watch it at least once a week. And of course the fairy part was my favorite! :)


Monday, April 23, 2012

CLASS 4-23-12

I had fun in class today. Even though we were making stuff out of trash, it was nice to be able to take my mind off of everything else and just be creative. (My group made a sad face out of the trash because we were to show "just say no to happiness" which is kind of a weird phrase...I've never heard of anyone to say something like that.) What stood out most to me was when Beth talked about recycling your thoughts and ideas. Just like we recycle our trash, we recycle our ideas in the New Media field. It was very interesting to sit and think about how these two things are related...especially after watching "Waste Land" in class. Which by the way, I highly recommend watching. It is a very inspirational movie.

Thursday, April 12, 2012

Fear Part 3

1. The presentation that I reacted most strongly to was Sarah's. She talked about her fear of not being able to communicate with people because she is deaf. I believe it was also a fear of hers to sit in front of the class and talk about her experiences as a "handicapped" person.
2. The reason I responded so strongly to hers was because I felt the hurt and pain vibrations she was giving off about having to deal with something like that in life. I felt how sad she was and I wished that the human race was not so misunderstanding of people who are "different". I sat there and wondered why she had to go through that in life, but others didn't. I wondered how hard it would be to live in this world today, being deaf. She just really got me thinking about how we should treat everyone the same, and that it would really make a difference if we would step out of our comfort zones and make an effort to communicate with people who have trouble communicating like Sarah does. I also thought about how BIG of a person she was for sharing that with the class. God bless her. With the personality that I saw that girl give off in class, she will do nothing but go far in her life. What an amazing person.
3. This impacted the way I saw my project by making me think that I am ridiculous for having the fear that I do. It made me feel like there are so much worse things in life that could happen and that I should be worrying about bigger things.

Fear Part 2

For this assignment, I decided to make a video about myself and let the class watch it. In my last blog post I talked about having the fear of not being able to make people happy or make people like me. I talked about not being able to fully express myself to strangers. This had a lot to do with the fear of being judged. So the video I made about myself helped me to overcome a bit of this fear because I had to show a bunch of "strangers" in the class something that nearly fully expressed the person that I am, what I'm interested in, and what I'm all about. I had to take that chance and get up in front of the class, knowing that I was going to be judged after letting people see that video. It scared the crap out of me...but I think the more I do things like this, the easier it gets for me to deal with the fact of being judged by people. I am starting to come to the realization that this is just something that all humans do. There is no denying it, it's just something that we all do even if we aren't trying to judge someone.
Here is the link to my video: http://promoshq.wildfireapp.com/website/6/contests/189641/voteable_entries/47740767

For the most part, I think that the class reacted to my presentation as I had thought they would. I did get a couple of head nods throughout the video and I even had a couple of comments. I didn't think that I would have any comments. I don't think people in the class thought my video was as weird as I had first thought. Someone mentioned the fact that it was "weird" that I don't like to talk about myself, but I am an artist and this is what art is all about...expressing yourself. It really got me thinking. It is a little weird, but I think the whole reason for me being an artist is because it gives me the satisfaction of being able to express myself through different mediums, not just words. Words are so cheap and over-used...and I think that is why I hate talking about myself. It's easier for me to tell people who I am through art.

If I could go back and do this project again, I would probably still show the video, but try to engage the class in conversation about myself. Maybe I could have asked them if they had any questions about me, or my life. Or maybe I could have asked them if anyone felt the same about this fear I have and what they all have done to help overcome it. I think my project could've been more successful if I had the class talking.