Fear Part 1

I think the number one thing that makes me fearful is not being able to make someone happy. In my head I tell myself over and over again that, "I don't care what others think of me. I don't care if that person doesn't like me." but in reality I know it's just a cover-up to try and make myself appear more powerful. I will admit that it does work sometimes when I'm in public, but at the end of the day I am sitting at home wondering whether or not "that person" likes me or thinks I'm cool. If I can't make everyone happy/like me, I feel like a failure...even though I know this is hardly possible.
This fear keeps me from being confident and in control of myself because I am always trying to please other people. It also keeps me from expressing myself and showing others who I really am. I have always been told that I am a very hard person "to get to know". This affects my life when it comes to making friends and also affects my creativity as an artist. I really hope that one day I will be able to completely break out of my shell...even to strangers.
So for me, fear is something in my life that keeps me from being able to fully express myself as an individual being.

I think my classmates might think I'm a little weird after I show them what I have made for this fear assignment. I don't think I will get much of a reaction...maybe some blank stares or a couple of head nods. I doubt anyone will even have a comment.

What Has Stuck Sideways?

1.  Three things that I remember from this class thus far include the following:

• Beth showing us the beautiful rocks underneath the fluorescent light. I remember it making me think deeper about seeing "ugly" things in a beautiful way.
• I remember the day Beth brought in all the different, interesting instruments. I couldn't believe how such a simple thing (like the bowl and masher) could make such a loud, appealing sound.
• I remember the girl who showed her project about the light bulb with water in it to the class. I loved the way she connected that project with the recent tornado that happened in southern Indiana. I recall my senses to feel sorry for her and all of the people in her hometown. 

2.   Experiences that I have had in this class are way different than others because it is more personable. I feel like I learn life lessons weekly rather than just learning a "daily lesson" from a textbook. I also like the fact that everyone in the class shares what they have created. I find it to be very inspirational.

3.  What I would like to get out of the rest of this class is to continue learning about myself and what is best for me. It's amazing what you can learn about yourself if you just take the time to do it. I've never been given a chance like in this class to do something like that.

CLASS 3-5-12

What I remember most about class today was watching the pottery video. I found it to be very refreshing on seeing a different approach and view towards artistic creations. I also never knew you could make wine out of dandelions. Pretty cool! Oh...and I absolutely loved seeing Beth's pottery of her own that she made. The tea-pot was just beautiful. I wonder if Beth would consider selling it?!

Unexpected Improv

The reason I brought in my blanket as my totem last class was because it is a source of comfort for me. So for this assignment I started thinking about what is comforting to the human race. I made a short list:
-being loved
-having shelter
-good food
-great friends
-having a means of transportation

It was a short list, but after looking through them once they were written down I automatically thought about the fact that some of these things weren't possible in having without having money. So in a way (even though I hate to admit it) money is a very comforting thing to have.

This is how I thought about making a wallet out of duck tape for this assignment. I had seen them before, but I wanted to learn how to make one for myself.

I'm excited to use it!